On Sex

Let's talk about sex.
I'm pretty sure I can have it if I ask for it. I haven't asked for it, though, and I'm starting to think it might be good for me to have a personal sexual revolution and just start asking. I could benefit from some physical closeness. I could benefit from some release. I could benefit from someone trying to make me feel good.
I have lots of reasons for not doing this, such as: what if the answer is "no", what if I'm actually really bad at it, what if it doesn't feel good, I don't have any time, I don't want to spend what little money I have on condoms... Okay, that last reason is a bad reason.
The big reason--the reason I don't talk about--is that, while the idea of sex sounds welcome and fulfilling, the idea of what happens before and after scares me to death when it doesn't include secret smiles, someone's smell becoming familiar, little kisses just because.

"I want to fuck you" just doesn't sound as good as "I like you a lot". "That was fun" doesn't mean as much if "You make me happy" isn't implicit in the statement.


Anonymous said...

a wonderful person like you should not only ask for it...you should down right demand it! I fell onto your photographs through a very bizzare connection and since then I have fallen head over heels for you and your photography. Whatever you capture in your photos is raw emotion..there is feeling there.

ever make it to Vermont?


Molly said...

Hi P,

Thank you so much for all of the falling! Into my photos, in love with my photos, even in love with me! I'm so honored and I hope you haven't scraped your knees when you fell.

Vermont is great. They have cheddar cheese and maple syrup there, and also some of my people. I head up, from time to time, to enjoy those things. They are some of my favorites.

Visit again!

Tim Somero said...

Bravo! Well expressed.