LAST day on-call LAST Team meeting LAST Staff meeting LAST day of class LAST papers due LAST group LAST meeting with a patient LAST day in the Emergency Department LAST assignment - Poster Session LAST day at my internship
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it to some
Someone else’s heart
Pumping someone else’s blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don’t got hard
But even if it does
You’ll just do it all again.
- Regina Spektor, telling one rendition of the story of my professional career thus far. Or maybe telling the story of my career forever. Or maybe social work in general. Or maybe just life.
I am not sleeping in. I am getting up, and I'm not making the bed but I am opening the curtains. And the windows! I am making art. I am making breakfast. I'm having tea and two muffins in my nightgown. I am saying nice things to friends. I am dancing like a crazy person.
I am not looking at my resume. I am looking at LinkedIn, Idealist, Indeed, and SimplyHired to remind myself that I will find a job, and when that stops making me happy, I’m jumping on the bed.
I'm painting my nails. I'm doing a little bit of homework. I'm wearing a new sweater. I am wearing pigtails.
I am looking deep into my own eyes.
I am helping my brother. I am leaving the house.
Today, I am doing things for happiness. Tomorrow I’ll do things because I have to.