This is how it works:

Aurora, Originally uploaded by ME!

You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it to some
Someone else’s heart
Pumping someone else’s blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don’t got hard
But even if it does
You’ll just do it all again.

- Regina Spektor, telling one rendition of the story of my professional career thus far. Or maybe telling the story of my career forever. Or maybe social work in general.  Or maybe just life.

Today

Magic Sandbox, originally uploaded by Me.

I am not sleeping in. I am getting up, and I'm not making the bed but I am opening the curtains. And the windows!  I am making art. I am making breakfast. I'm having tea and two muffins in my nightgown. I am saying nice things to friends. I am dancing like a crazy person.

I am not looking at my resume. I am looking at LinkedIn, Idealist, Indeed, and SimplyHired to remind myself that I will find a job, and when that stops making me happy, I’m jumping on the bed.

I'm painting my nails. I'm doing a little bit of homework. I'm wearing a new sweater. I am wearing pigtails.

I am looking deep into my own eyes.

I am helping my brother. I am leaving the house.

Today, I am doing things for happiness. Tomorrow I’ll do things because I have to.

Maybe.